I used to be overly fluffy. For years I was obese and out of hope. I had come to grips that maybe I would just always be that way, but I knew I was not happy, did not feel good about myself, ached all over and seriously just wanted to hide. That was not a good place for me as I am naturally outgoing.
I was prompted by a friend to journal all the reasons I wanted to be naturally healthy and fit. I listed all the obvious reasons: health, appearance, better self-esteem, to be able to find clothes that fit, etc. I continued to journal for deeper reasons and found the one that inspired my heart and gave me courage: I wanted to be able to chase butterflies with my grandbabies someday.
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